Vines twisting and turning,
Never quite ending and never quite beginning.
And as i watch, relax, breathe,
My world begins to fall, break, shatter.
Your words still hanging on my tongue,
Whispering and chanting,
Haunting and seeping.
Etched into my skin,
Like your very own painting.
And at last your masterpiece is complete,
Tears stained red.
I wonder why its taken me this long to figure it out,
What was then will never be now
That what Ive wished
Wont happen somehow
I set myself up for this downfall
Where everything I believed in
Came crashing down
What Ive always wanted will always have been distantly true
But ironic situations seem to flock to my life
What I loved then will always have loved be back
What I love now, is still stuck in the past
What will break me down until the end?
Well, what was then will never be now.
A line of music notes,
Repetative in my mind.
A single lullaby,
So soft and melodic,
Breathtaking beautiful and mysterious.
Everything you were to me
In one unforgettable sequence.
I wanna go and pretend i never met you,
[I never wanted to.]
I wanna go and pretend i never needed you,
[I never loved you.]
I've given up,
I'm not even holding on.
This feeling inside,
I no longer feel strong.
And i wish,
Oh i wish,
The memories would come alive.
And i wish,
So much i wish,
Your touch, your feel, would survive.
[Forever inside,]
Forever inside me.
As im spinning and singing,
Brushing off the hurt and the anger.
as i become dizzy and the world fades from view,
I sing along to the only words that seem to make sense anymore.
Life goes on.
I used to be afraid of losing you,
I just got so used to being around you and laughing,
Honestly i was just for once effortlessly happy.
But jealousy creeped up in thoughts i never knew existed,
And they haunted me.
They corrupted me, twisted me into the manipulative bitch standing before you.
And now that i've lost you,
Beside the aching feeling of missing you,
I'm still smiling, breathing... living,
Without you.
And so i can honestly say,
With my heart sprawled out across the table,
You are no longer everything to me.
We chose sides, and the battles over.
I can't remember the last time i felt like this.
Free,
Like it doesnt matter anymore.
Everyone who's been judging me and hating me?
They all float away.
Everything on my dark side of the moon sweetens,
Purifies into the lost love ive always longed to give
I hear the chirping of lullabies,
And a soft sigh from my surpised lips.
My whole personna has relaxed,
All my cares have floated down the river.
Wishful Thinking by sugarcoated-disaster, literature
Literature
Wishful Thinking
Dream with me.
Carry my thoughts through the oceans and the trees;
Sweep it lower than the ground and bury me in fantasy.
I want to feel you're heart beating along with mine
So very fast; beating and beating faster than time.
Carry me closer and closer to the light.
The light which shines brighter than the sun,
Of which reads the words: you are my only one.
"So show me"
She whispered in his ear
And he did.
He gave her the best feeling in the world
"But it was only a kiss"
She thought
But she knew it wasnt.
It was his mind, his heart, everything he's ever felt
Being passed along to her lonely lips.
It was him showing her exactly what it felt like to be in love.
To be invincible.
I Swear I'm Done by sugarcoated-disaster, literature
Literature
I Swear I'm Done
Pill number one,
And i swear im done.
Pill number two,
I promise then im through.
Pill number three,
See?
Its helping me.
Pill number four,
No, no you dont understand,
I need more.
Pill number five,
See, im still alive.
Pill number six,
A little tequila to mix,
Pill number seven,
And now my soul is close to heaven.
"So show me"
She whispered in his ear
And he did.
He gave her the best feeling in the world
"But it was only a kiss"
She thought
But she knew it wasnt.
It was his mind, his heart, everything he's ever felt
Being passed along to her lonely lips.
It was him showing her exactly what it felt like to be in love.
To be invincible.
Wishful Thinking by sugarcoated-disaster, literature
Literature
Wishful Thinking
Dream with me.
Carry my thoughts through the oceans and the trees;
Sweep it lower than the ground and bury me in fantasy.
I want to feel you're heart beating along with mine
So very fast; beating and beating faster than time.
Carry me closer and closer to the light.
The light which shines brighter than the sun,
Of which reads the words: you are my only one.
I can't remember the last time i felt like this.
Free,
Like it doesnt matter anymore.
Everyone who's been judging me and hating me?
They all float away.
Everything on my dark side of the moon sweetens,
Purifies into the lost love ive always longed to give
I hear the chirping of lullabies,
And a soft sigh from my surpised lips.
My whole personna has relaxed,
All my cares have floated down the river.
I used to be afraid of losing you,
I just got so used to being around you and laughing,
Honestly i was just for once effortlessly happy.
But jealousy creeped up in thoughts i never knew existed,
And they haunted me.
They corrupted me, twisted me into the manipulative bitch standing before you.
And now that i've lost you,
Beside the aching feeling of missing you,
I'm still smiling, breathing... living,
Without you.
And so i can honestly say,
With my heart sprawled out across the table,
You are no longer everything to me.
We chose sides, and the battles over.
As im spinning and singing,
Brushing off the hurt and the anger.
as i become dizzy and the world fades from view,
I sing along to the only words that seem to make sense anymore.
Life goes on.
I wanna go and pretend i never met you,
[I never wanted to.]
I wanna go and pretend i never needed you,
[I never loved you.]
I've given up,
I'm not even holding on.
This feeling inside,
I no longer feel strong.
And i wish,
Oh i wish,
The memories would come alive.
And i wish,
So much i wish,
Your touch, your feel, would survive.
[Forever inside,]
Forever inside me.
A line of music notes,
Repetative in my mind.
A single lullaby,
So soft and melodic,
Breathtaking beautiful and mysterious.
Everything you were to me
In one unforgettable sequence.
I wonder why its taken me this long to figure it out,
What was then will never be now
That what Ive wished
Wont happen somehow
I set myself up for this downfall
Where everything I believed in
Came crashing down
What Ive always wanted will always have been distantly true
But ironic situations seem to flock to my life
What I loved then will always have loved be back
What I love now, is still stuck in the past
What will break me down until the end?
Well, what was then will never be now.
My name's Brittney, it's common and overused, and i hate it.
Current Residence: new york Favourite genre of music: id have to say acoustic and r&b Favourite style of art: everything to me is art, to me they are all considered my favorite
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
so many.
Favourite Writers
amelia atwater rhodes, not my all time favorite, but i cant deff read everything she's written
hey there!
I used to be crrzynhyper one, but i grew quite a bit out of the username xD.
Soo all the art on that username stays, but this account is for the use of my poems. I'm not too sure how good they are, which is why i decided to put them up here. So a notice to all the critics: I will take every criticism seriously and professionally. I'd really like to better my skills.
I'll be posting a few as soon as im able..
--brittney<3